Back to Work

This is my first week as a working mama.

It's kind of bittersweet.... its nice to have some time to myself during the day again and be able to get things done, but I sure miss my nugget.

It's so hard to leave when he is so happy and smiley in the morning and makes me sad that I only get to see him 1-2 hrs a day now.

The last 3 months have gone by so fast. 

They have been really hard at times and really good at others. 
Being a parent is so much harder than anyone ever tells you.

But it's hard to stay frusterated when you get this face:

I have stopped pumping and Braxton is on 100% formula.  He was on all breastmilk for the first 2 months and then we started introducing formula little by little.  I know that doesn't seem like a long time but I feel good we got a solid 2-3 months.  Pumping was really hard for me.  It was hard being a first time mom, having to feed the baby 8 times a day AND try to pump 8 times a day.  Not gonna lie- there were times that I was so jealous of moms that can just breastfeed or babies that can drink from a bottle by themselves.  After the first month I cut it back to 4 times to gain some sanity back and have just been backing off since then.  My sweet friend Ellie pumped for 9 months straight.  God Bless her.. I have no idea how she did it.  She is amazing and she is an amazing mother.  I am so happy that Braxton will get to hang out with her until he starts daycare in April.

(her little girl had to use the habberman nipple too so its nice that she is very familiar with Braxton's feeding routine!)

We're still working out the digestion/formula issues.  He's currently on Nutramigen- it smells like vomit but is super broken down so it should be the easiest on his system.  I'm hoping this helps with the tummy aches and crying fits during feedings.  If we don't see a change in the next few weeks, we'll probably try reflux medicince. 

By the way... the soy formula was a definite NO GO.  It was so hard on his system and hurt his belly so bad!!